the morning before

Doing hw...in the BX with my dad...just chillin...thinking more about the future...

Listening to the Ting Tings...

And.

Thinking about old peeps...peeps from the past...suddenly pop up when you're about to start a new chapter in your life...

Thinking about who im gonna miss and how i'm gonna miss them...

I mean...it's a bit premature but it wont hurt to think...

IDK.

LOL. And I LOVE Beyonce's single ladies vid...omg amazing...she just rocks. yup yup.

I'm so glad we had that convo...she hadn't called in forever and now she called randomly...yea haha i missed her o.d.

I'm glad we can talk about every thing in the world. SO i know she's gonna be there no matter what. Even if she thinks i'm stupid. :-p

But.

We're all stupid. We don't know anything.

We just pretend.

I'm feeling mad gangsta... and i can't get enuf of beyonce...



I fucking want those pants and that fucking sweater....mad sexy... i just want it. now. hahaha.....

and I'm really fucking...make a promise...you gotta put it on me...

Yea random days...

But.

I'm just kinda chillin i guess...nothings hot right now...

I'm glad i saw Hancock-----:-D

I want sum tea...

Jeez...my lil sis...that's what i worry about the most when i wonder about going to college...

She thinks she can't do it. She thinks she can't do it on her own. Nobody has ever told her that.

Ever.

So its makes me so upset and frustrated when i try and help her...jesus...i'm not going to do her homework for her. I'll help all i can. But she just whines and carries on. Like what the fuck. I can only do so much until she needs to pick up for herself.

Fucking carrying on like she cant even sit up straight when she's doing homework...makes me wanna scream.

Because she's better than that. IDK man...and i feel like everyone is trying however they know how...she just doesn't know it.

sigh...here i go...gonna go help her.

Jesus help us.