yuck my yum

So i've been thinking about her and sex all day.

Not in conjunction with each other though.

Because today was HeartBeats at Hofstra...it was awesum...

The opening skit we did went really well. No real fuckups.

The best part of the day was the keynote speakers from Love Heals.

There were two HIV positive people and what they said to us was just so memorable.

The only name i remember is Shekina. We can call her CC.

Shes a lesbian and she was born with HIV. And she's sexy as hell. Sexy and HIV positive.

That's awesum. That's just a miracle.

And I want to use a female condom. Every lesbian I know thinks It's weird and it does kinda makes being a lezzie pointless.

Pussy is sweet and penis is skin. Blah.

Gay men using a condom is no big deal but when a lezzie uses one it loses its yum factor.

Hahaha...like i kno.

And about her.

I don't know what to think. I'm suddenly scared and worried. I felt like my heart was ripped out my chest last nite. I just knew something was wrong.

So if things were hard before today then it's impossible now. But i've prayed before and it works.

So I'm chillin in jims house. Thought i was going to an art party. But i dont even feel like it now. Ima just chill and try to feel ok.

Watching True Blood...bout to eat some fried shrimp.



This wordless song is by exlosions in the sky and its called Memorial.

I couldn't find anything else to describe how i feel...