Tried to dye my hair purple. It looks kinda black.
I feel like I'm on the verge of something. Like I have to make a huge decision very soon.
I had a great talk with my dad about some things though.
About relationships and how important the foundations are.
If you start out with chocolate and roses.....then roses and chocolate better keep coming.
Today was very interesting...watched a pretty great Nativity Story movie.
Really put me in the THANK JESUS mood...
Tommorrow is a party. Muy excited. Celebrate my bros b-day and get crazy with my cuzzo.
I thought about a lot today...
Didn't talk to her at all today. IDK why tho...
Primary utterances of good morning.
I feel like I lost my flow.
Sigh....that's not good.
I'm feeling very contemplative and in the mood to go out by myself to central park. Sit and think. Listen to music. Meet a random person maybe.
She hasn't called yet.
That phone convo was kinda interesting though. I don't know why i called her. We never talk on the phone.
Then the convo with my sm..."what are friends with benefits? Is that what you really want? Say the guy comes and gets it on with you one day. Then meets up with ?Sasha de La Roca? the next and gets it on with her. Would you be okay if the guy comes back to get it on with you the day after next? Sharing all kinds of spit and bodily fluids between ya'll?"
Hahah...i don't know how we got to this convo. But it was pretty interesting nonetheless.
Explosions in the Sky- The Only Moment We Were Alone
Amazing song....oh my goodness.
Going to their concert would an AMAZING NIGHT OF SOUNDS.
Look at how they jam and flow like their souls are connected...
when was the last time I rested my head on your shoulder and felt like that feeling was mine to keep? Yours to keep?
Poetry? Naaaaahhhh. I hope not.
Sigh...I want an iTouch.
I want I want I want...I need I need I need....
Maybe she was right..."She wants all this stuff but what does she give?..."
Its crazy how that simple passing comment can stick in my mind for such a long time...
Contemplative is the right adjective.
Explosions...- Have you passed through this night?
Somber...not sad. I have indeed.
Determined walk...reminds me of everything possible.
worlds smallest violin!
taadaa...
Im a fiend for explosions and death cab and stars right now.
i hope tommorrow happens. Hope nothing shady happens. Appears to fuck with my head.
Death Cab- What Sarah Said
And it came to me then that every plan is a tiny prayer to father time
As I stared at my shoes in the ICU that reeked of piss and 409
And I rationed my breathes as I said to myself that I'd already taken too much today
As each descending peak of the LCD took you a little farther away from me
Amongst the vending machines and year-old magazines in a place where we only say goodbye
It stung like a violent wind that out memories depend on a faulty camera in our minds
But I knew that you were a truth I would rather lose than to have never lain beside at all
And I looked around at all the eyes on the ground as the TV entertained itself
'Cause there's no comfort in the waiting room
Just nervous pacers bracing for bad news
And then the nurse comes round and everyone will lift their heads
But I'm thinking of what Sarah said that "Love is watching someone die"
So who's going to watch you die?..
at 1:16 - she writes "il m'aime" which means "he loves me"
1:27 - i can't tell exactly what it says on her hand but it might "un jeu?" which means "a game?" not sure if that makes sense or not
~2:15 - (on the wall) it says "beaucoup" which means "a lot"
2:25 - (on her arm) "passionnement" means "passionately"
5:24 - (on her leg) "alafoue" or "a la foue" and i have no idea what the first means and i can't find it online, but "a la foue" might mean "to the mad" or "to the crazy" if either of those makes sense, otherwise i don't know
5:52 - "il m'aime pas du tout" which means "he loves me not at all" or "he doesn't love me at all" (take your pick)
at the end she writes "il m'aime" again...
This video....oh man...crazy sad and important in the mid of the night.
She actually said "She might look all together...but she's all fucked up."
Inside...true...?
"Love is watching someone die...So who's gonna watch you die?"
Wow....never ever heard this song before.
Made me sit wide eyed and open mouthed and tear stricken.
She does it over and over again...
Goes back on the merry-go-round.
Stars- elevator love letter
"My office glows all night long,
It's a nuclear show and the stars are gone
Elevator, elevator, take me home...
Don't go. Say you'll stay
Spend a lazy Sunday in my arms
I won't take anything away
Don't go. Say you'll stay
Spend a lazy Sunday in my arms
don't take anything away"
I'm sketching in my new sketchbook. Having fun with sharpies. Waiting for a phone call.
I can't let it come out without any inspiration behind it.
