Take a breath of fresh air and dance around the room!

Soundtrack to this post---- anything happy and festive...haha

So......

Things have worked out pretty calmly after the whole panicky mess of emotions.

I'm so glaaaaaaaaaaaad.....EXCITED...........i got the internship!!!!!!!!!!!

OHMIGAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Haha...So I'm type typing when i should be cooking or cleaning or something...

I'm drinking ginger ale...haven't had it in a while...

I making stuff for gifts this year...I have to think about it alot...

I hope it turns out good...i mean it's not that big but it's original.....?

:-)

This christmas is going to be very good.

My week since the weekend has been awesum...

I'm looking forward to 2009.

:-D

So much has happened and I'm happy we're at the college stage.

It's terrifying and exciting and SO REAL to wonder about what's gonna happen after college.

I feel like I'm always reachig for something that could only be a dream...a hope...a goal...that might never be reached.

Why am i applying to schools all over the plaec?

Chicago, new york, baltimore,...I even thought about Rohode Island.

I don't know what's in Chicago. I wanna find out.

I live in new york but I don't know all of it. I would love to find it all out.

But I'm not sure what it is that i need for a college experience.

If i want to be in a totally new place....

Or be in a place that has been there but I've never had the time or opp to discover and make my own.

If I stay in NY...I would be on my own but not really. I would be able to call someone up and chill when I need to. To have a real shoulder to lean on if I need one instead of just verbal support.

Either one I'm lucky to have but I'm not sure of what i can handle.

I feel so weak...on one hand I want to step out into the unknown and come back to tell the story.

On the other...I wanna experience things with a safety of sorts. I don't know. Sigh....Such a decision. I wish it was clear.

But then again the beauty of it is that I don't know. Hahah...repeated myself.

I mean things turn out how they're going to turn out no matter what. I'm just afraid of losing everything and everyone. And failing. But I'd be a failure if I didn't try.

There's nothing stopping me. There never will be. Except myself.

Toodlez...