idk what happened

So...this is the first blogging attempt by me...
I had a pretty bad day. This girl that im in love with decided to fuck some other girl and tell me because that was why she wouldn't get back with me. Typical. Pathetic. Pretty cliche. Im sorry to bore anyone who read that.
But. It hurt. Every little bit hurts...(Alicia Keys)



I gave her everything...and then some... then she admitted that she could've tried harder. When people don't keep their promises, its the worst thing in the world to me. She promised to never let me go. My eyes drown every time i think about it. I ended up crying on the bathroom floor at my brother's going away party. Figures. 3 months and this is what its reduced to. Bullshit. I'm angry and pissed and broken. And she said i didn't fight for it. for her. I shouldn't have to if she loves me and if i didn't do anything wrong. Sigh...I cant sleep.

Thats why i decided to make this blog...maybe if i see whats going on in my head for real...maybe I'll know what to do next. Maybe i should just be young and free and pretend not to care. Go party. Have a lot of meaningless sex. Like her.

But that's not in me. I'm just too good a person. Too trusting. Maybe this is a turning point.

I might become a cold heartless bitch after this.

Anyway...this song is stuck in my head. Enjoy.(Tegan and Sara-The First)