Somebody?! WTF?!

I just got the dye for my hair. Money Green. Wow...cha ching...

(i know. I'll never do that again.)

I'm excited. Very much so. And i just developed an new theory. About. The last three months of my life.


I...lost myself in belonging to someone. Because it felt so good. I'm still sure of who I am...but I need to change something. I need a new approach. To being there for someone and who to put my trust in. My brother told me "Know everything before you get into anything". But that advice was kind of late. But it's okay. It's a learning experience. I'll get through this.

But. Why do people say I'm pretty, talented, nice and all that shit...if all I get out of this is time I'll never get back and regrets? I feel like a real fool...I pick things...that might not look smart and a surefire success. Hoping that if I work hard enough...It'll all end up the way I want.

But...I guess that...method...isn't very...effective. I should make a list of things i want in a girl. Like that movie. :-/ No. That's ...okay. Nevermind.