Kiss me lightly beside the green green grass...

It's been a long time.

I shouldna left you.

Without a dope beat to step to.

Hey comp...I'm sorry i left you...

Been going through some things...and now I'm ready to let it out.

Slowly but surely.

I found my concentration..I'm glad...it's like an empty room...an open door...

I gotta do it. Cuz it's in my blood...Hopefully peeps will see what i see...or just...

at least...

look. and acknowledge. and recognize.

??

sigh...

yea.

So...

Have you ever loved somebody so much it made you cry?



(brandy...)

mad old...but yea. there it is.

I don't know where to start.

I think my heart is breaking.

Because I dreamed forever and I'm starting to think until tomorrow. Because halfway is hardest. And all i can do is wait. It makes me want to break down. Cuz it's literally making my heart pang. Pang pang pang...

Like it'll beat and I'll think of her and feel like a stab feeling. Deep in my chest.

You don;t know me like you used to. I'm on the move. And I'm thinking big things. And I'm wondering if you're gonna come with. Stay. Spend some time. For me. For my heart For life and for love. You ain't missing me but I'm missing you.



(Aaliyah- One in a million)

It's coming to be clear to me that the ones who love you the most and the ones you love the most will hurt you the worst. But that's the point. It's a test because then you forgive them. You always will. And you expect them to forgive you. No matter what kind of love it is. You just do.

And I'm not a child for being optimistic. Nor am i naive. I'm just gifted with a happy heart.

But I'm letting the world make me and shape me. And that's fine for a while. But sooner or later ima have to switch this shit up and start changing and making the world. Cuz lately I've been down.

Not sad. Just subdued.

Who made you happy last nite? idk. Who made made me happy last nite? nobody.

I'd love to know who will eventually...my heart is tearing...maybe...cracking...stretching...



(evanescence- my immortal)<---feigning for this song rite now.

Just a minute where i can breathe without fearing to exhale because i don't want a sob to escape from my lips.

But other than all that. My plans for the future and my career and my sights are fine.

Money is needed. It is in dire demand right now. For everything to run smoothly...

Obama day is on tuesday...:-D

smiling moment...

ok. love is up.

So...I just saw the phantom of the opera on Broadway.

I sympathize with the phantom. pointblank. betrayal is the worst when you count on someone or something. )-: poor phantom...

And now I'm sitting here wondering if something is happening. Behind my back. Ending without my knowing. Waiting to be found out.



acceptance- i miss you

I used to listen to acceptance a whole lot...and then i stopped. But now im in it again.

And that song is one that has always wormed its way into my head. That vid is actually really good too.



but this song is the best from them..."Glory/Us"

enjoy...it's amazing. like thunder in my soul.

and this song is from their cd called phantoms...ironic huh? (:-P)

My feelings about sex-



(Starting Line- Bedroom Talk)

This is how i feel. If it happens then it happens. I'm gonna tear your ass up like we just got married...I'm getting older and older all of the time...:-/

So...ima go lay down and do something.

BBl...comp.