SHOWTIME?!

What do u do when u wanna remind someone of how things used to be but i wanna experience new with the same person???

idk...I don't know how to deal with what I'm feeling. How to find happy when what's in me is frustration and worry.

and the who i thought i could open up and spill into...closes up and stops receiving.

the meaning of dealing with someone. drives me crazy. Cuz it's a willing situation but it sounds unwilling. ..

What do i want? I want to make moves in my life and someone else's. But it's not proving effective cuz the certain person doesn't seem to hold this close and sacred like i do.

But then my problem seems to be making small things into big things. I do that alot. But maybe it's not a big problem of mine. Maybe it is.

The one who is mine forever shall be the one to love my faults and love my best parts even more.

That's my idea.

I think....lemme not say...:-p

no. ill say.

I want things to be brand new. Not just a puzzle that I'm moving the pieces around of. Like not a piece of art made up of things that i've already worked with when

But things are looking up ya'kno?

I'm moving forward mind wise. And body wise. Going places.



jack johnson- upside down

:-DDDDD love that song!!!!

I feel things changing. And i need to find a connection to her. The right one. Not just words but a full moment. Not rushed.

And then one with me. I'm not a girl. Not yet a woman. So...there's time. More than enough.

I need a second job...

Need God. Fervently. Urgently.

Need her. Fervently. Urgently.



crush- david u-know-who

:-9

i feel like this. unconditionally.

yes. yes i do. do i yes...sey/yes...

i don't think i'm on her mind often honestly. and idk if that's unfair. but i can be honest.

but what if I'm let down. a lot of let downs in my life. indeed. hope this isn't another one. and I hope I'm not a letdown.

yea...GASP!!!--->>>

"It's tearing up my heart when I'm with you
But when we are apart, I feel it too
And no matter what I do, I feel the pain
with or without you

Baby I don't understand
Just why we can't be lovers
Things are getting out of hand
Trying too much, but baby we can't win

Let it go
If you want me girl, let me know
I am down on my knees
I can't take it anymore

Baby don't misunderstand
What I'm trying to tell ya
In the corner of my mind
Baby, it feels like we are running out of time

Let it go
If you want me girl, let me know
I am down on my knees
I can't take it anymore

Tearin' up my heart and soul
We're apart I feel it too
and no matter what I do, I feel the pain
With or without you

And no matter what I do, I feel the pain
With or without you"

:-p snuck sum *Nsync in there homay!!!

Hmm..maybe it's just a phase i'm feeling so worried and unsafe and vulnerable and on guard. Most likely. Iono...

But...

Ya kno what???

As long as I'm breathing and He's with me....I'm ok.

Just don't let me be the last to know...

OKAY...

:-D back to procrastinating with my hw and chillin w my loves.

ttyl compy...