old school<--->new soul

So...wow...life has been interesting since friday night...football games are awesum...

hahah...i love violence. :-p only when it's for a good cause...like winning. :-D

Ok ok...so i made a date with my baby and i was determined not to let anything fuck my mood up that night. Luckily...actually...everything was very random but the night ended very well.

I mean the chick got pissed but i was happy. I'm done worrying about her. Cuz really in the beginning i was sympathetic...and i felt wrong... and really bad...that's why i texted her and told her to stop crying and shit when my baby/her girl was drunk.

But.

Even then i was still confused about how i was gonna handle all the crap... Jeez girls do some crazy shit. So i actually tried to help her.

But now's not the time to be...idk...passive. So...whatever.

Hah...and she thinks i'm stupid. wtf? How could i not know?

I mean.. a lot of people say i'm oblivious. They just don't realize that they're oblivious to the fact that i usually already know what's happening. Well...alot of times. Not usually...lol...cause I've definitely had many surprises in my life.



But...right now...i'm ok. I think i'm taking one day at a time.

Oh damn. That night was kinda crazy...I'm so glad all my friends are safe though. That's why i don't smoke or drink. I'm not one to look like a fool and get myself into trouble for no good reason.

I mean...my girl z was tore up. I had to hold her and it almost made me cry. Her bf was def about to get into even more trouble and i know she loves him. So I was just feeling helpless. But it turned out alright. They walked outa that school holding hands.

I felt happy when i saw them. Then all i had to do to make my night complete was to say goodnite to my baby. Cuz i know everyone's tryin not to fuck up and do their best. And that night was priceless. :-D When i think of it...it makes me smile.



sigh...i love incubus and brandon boyd...whoever said they're just whiny artsy music...can fuck off...even if they are...partially...right. lol...:-)

This world is fucking huge but not huge enough for everyone to have their own space and not get in anyone's way. It's crazy...the girl that me and my friends were talking abouu turned out to be someone i already knew...hm. Cool how we're all connected.

It was really weird when i found out. creepy even...lol...

And then yesterday...i chilled with my baby for a little while. It was a great day for me. really...I woke up...did homework then went to see her.

I mean...we talked about her but the way we did...it didn't upset me really. I'm surprising myself at how patient i am and how much i understand at this point.
Cuz it makes no sense to break someone's heart if you've had good times. But it makes sense to still try to be happy with the one you want to be with. I hope i did understand that right. yea. I'm wondering how she's dealign with this.

Because i think the hardest part for her may be keeping her as a friend and not hurting her too badly. But idk...im kinda in the dark about that part of the sitch. I really dont know.

Anyway...i wish everyday was as awesum and chill as yesterday.

With a whole lotta parties thrown in.

I'm bored and my legs can't stop moving even though im sitting down. ugh...i need to dance...to fuck...to party...to just...ugh...man...i need something new...something that will make changing things always complete but still free to move. idk...a revolving door puzzle of sum sort.

Yea.

That's it. I just want all the bullshit to stop and have everyone realize whats important. Cause once we all do...we'll start being happy. I'm definitely working on that myself.

"yesterday I saw a B-girl crying
I walked up and asked what’s wrong, she told me that the radio’s been playing the same song all day long…
so I told her I got something you’ve been waiting for, I got something you’ve been waiting for..."



Sigh...schools tommorrow. I gotta finish homework...my birthdai is friday...i hope the week is good...sigh...yeah...